Fourier Analysis is a mathematical tool which can do a number of things: separate out signals from noise; help identify patterns or trends in data; filter out all unwanted data and focus on a single signal; use approximations to make generalizations; make approximations of real world signals (think electronic music); combine harmonics to get a stronger signal. That's what I'll be trying to do here!! Won't you join me with your comments?

Friday, June 13, 2008

Missing...No Action

Yes, I am still here. Thanks for asking. Hugs and lovely thoughts to all those who have sent messages and prayers my way. I just stalled out and crashed for a bit.

There came a point in the crises where I have had to do everything I could not to lose it. The energy to rant and curse and fight just ran out, the tears dried up, and numbness and shell-shock set in. I've been going through the motions and doing the daily tasks and yet felt there was no real "life" to any of it, although unfortunately, this is my reality.

My friend Jenn's post kind of brought home to me why I have had such trouble talking about this. While in my daily life I can put on a mask and make the small talk and attempt to follow normal social conventions, in this blogsphere I use the anonymity to allow for honest, unvarnished openness. And for a while now the pain of the various struggles has been such that I could hardly bear to look at it myself, much less share it with others.

I am ok. We are ok. But finding the new "normal" is taking some time. I will be sporadic in the posts for a bit. I have lots I want to say and share and happier times to cheer myself and others on with. But the energy levels are still pretty low.

But summer is coming. It seems to take forever in this part of the world. But it is, like healing and acceptance, inevitable.

Warmest heartfelt wishes to you all. Thanks for not forgetting about me!

14 comments:

Leslie said...

I was so pleased to see you pop up in my feed reader! I'm glad to know you're doing okay. You're still in my thoughts.

Goofball said...

Hi FA! So great to hear from you again. Of course we did not forget you.

I really hope your new "normal" will come soon! Take care girl! You'll resurface because I know you are strong.

soccer mom in denial said...

Oh YEAH!!! I'm so glad you posted. And your labels couldn't be more perfect. We are indeed your blogsphere family and we worry about you! We will wait until you are ready, listen to your trials and triumphs, and send you encouragement along the way.

Do shoot me at email (amitchellsATyahooDOTcom) when you are up for it. I really miss you darling....

CableGirl said...

I was really glad to see your name come up in my reader. Here's to hoping that you feel more at ease soon.

Robin said...

((((hug))))

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

Huge hugs to you! I've thought of you often.

I hope things get easier and that the warm rays of summer are healing for the whole family.

Goofball said...

Still thinking of you and sending you lots of warmth and encouragement!

Kate said...

It's so strange, I was watching the football with Jenn yesterday and I said I haven't heard from Fourier Analyst for a long time do you think she is ok? Then there you were leaving a message on Jenns blog! I'm so happy you are coming through the tunnel and back to the blogging world on the other side, welcome back xxxxxx

Shellie said...

Glad you are ok and hope things will only get better over time.

soccer mom in denial said...

Hey gorgeous,

You out there?

Robin said...

Thinking of you...

soccer mom in denial said...

Still missing you.....

Goofball said...

Hi FA, I didn't forget you! How are you doing? How is your family doing?

Goofball said...

Hi FA! Happy New Year. I hope you are doing ok. Take care